Mom is one of the kindest and most non-judgmental people I have ever met. She has loved me, served me, cared for me, prayed for me, guided me, and stood by me all these years in spite of the difficulties of living with someone who is bi-polar. I have tried very hard to be "normal," but the sudden and dramatic changes in mood have frequently overwhelmed me, making it next to impossible to function at all, much less with a semblance of normalcy. Added to this has been my lack of control of anger and an unrealistic view of how the world operates (without should-haves, no could-haves, no crystal ball pessimism... not so many perceived slights, in other words, not as I see it) have made living with me most unpleasant for Mom, I am sure. I am glad she has stuck by me! If for no other reason than her loyalty to me, I love her.
I get melancholy thinking of life without Mom. Should she develop Altzheimer's (like Grandma Herriges and 4 of her sisters) I would miss her terribly. She still laughs at my jokes, likes praying with me, enjoys shopping with me, and gives good back rubs. I love to see her working in her garden. I love to see her dolled up! I love watching her with the grandkids. I hope she will live long enough to meet her great grandchildren. One of my major problems is that Mom seems to love our own children and grandchildren more than me. However, upon mature reflection I know that she has more than enough love for all of us. Her love for the Lord is deeper and more trusting than mine... here we are unevenly yoked. I am more selfish than Mom... I am trying to be motivated more by love of the Lord than by fear or duty. I learn so much from Mom's example.
Well, do wish Mom a Happy Anniversary. She deserves that and so much more! Please keep us in your prayers as we keep you in ours.
Love, Dad
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